what the hell happened!?

So hi…? I have no idea what the happened I sort of disappeared for a bit there… I was like super into girls front line, and I still am on and off. but I got like weirdly back into Call of Duty? I’ve been playing the battle royal one they have out now and I played of the Black Ops Cold war beta that they had on both the console and the PC. but since I’m more of a PC gamer, always have been I played it on my pc which was really fun.

Its funny ya know I’ve been playing on my PC since I was a child since I could even type on a keyboard I’ve been playing games like Unreal Tournament 2000 till like Unreal Tournament 3 and 4. I played all the big games back in the on my dads old gaming PC which is crazy to me. he had an old AMD Athlon X4 and a bad GeForce card the always overheated, so we had to stick a desk fan next to the PC to cool it down haha. He later upgraded to I think a ATI card that was also better and didn’t overheat at the time, which back in the day was crazy because ATI was seen as the company that made space heater products.

I dont know why im rambling about all this right now I guess with as global pandemic and things literally falling apart I really want to go back in time to the times when things were a lot more simple to understand fo myself.

Back when I would take a bus 3 hours to my dads house in the snow the rain the hail, all of that stuff… Just to hang out with him and play a few games and watch mythbusters on loop with the occasional sunday night football on. Playing Microsoft flight simulator 2005, Everquest II, and battlefield 2 on pc while drinking an unhealthy amount of soda and downing maybe 2 to three pizzas of all sizes. But every time I remember those days I remember just how sad and depressed I was as a child. which is weird… to think about, ya know.

I don’t know man everything sucks a lot right now. My job is an absolute shit show people constantly leaving and they aren’t hiring anyone else, because of global pandemic ya know. The managers and leads dont really do a whole lot and corporate and others leads are actively trying to get people fired. with new weirdly strict rules. One is trying to get me in trouble for a few mistakes I made while on morning shift with him. her made me late clocking out twice. im about ready to just clean quit this job but theres no other jobs that are hiring in my area and the rest are just straight retail which I despise. This sucks man… I cant go anywhere.

I feel like whatever I do I just get shit on ya know? like I cant do anything good. I do know one thing I wanna do though that I can control and thats stream more on twitch mainly. I even made that account to mainly stream things like games and stuff. I tried to embed the stream on this site but it just never really worked for some reason… im not sure why. But I also wanna update this blog a whole lot more like everyday or so if I can. Art and music take time to make and writing some thing like this takes almost no time at all. its also a nice break from things.

anyways, im gonna go PEACE!